snow

in the morning...i wished upon the sky ... please let me sleep again and tell those trains not to work.
but the wish didn't come
i went to a company which provides 3day-internship from 12:40 to 18:30 every sunday. i was so afraid to go there since i had no confidence to communicate with people coming there. but actually there were many nice people whom i can feel some kind of sympathy.
one girl is a sub-desk of a freepaper handed to many places in the world. i was so excited but i also felt madcap is okay since they are so different. i didn't jaelous(?).
the other girl has been to Sweden for 2months, and she was in the elementary school there. she studied with swedish boys&girls in real. it's just so cool. i asked her to bring some pics took in the school. also she was talking pics of gothic-lolita-girls as her side-job

i'd love to love someone

but it doesn't matter who he is.

i think i need someone who i can really trust and rely on. i have so many mentors and i appreciate the fact. but still it is so hard for me to do many tasks without sayign any magic words not through the display but through the voice. i wanna talk to someone who is honest and have a big heart. i don't know who he/she is. it is so easy to say you should meet new people but it's not that much easy for me. if it's possibe, i'd like to live in my bedroom and eat all day long.

ugg

it was painful that i gotta go to the gift center to return some samples that are supposed to returned much much earlier. and the person who said "should be back in few weeks" was me ----- and it was a lie, we wanted to keep them as long as we could. my stomach shrinked when lori told me that they called us with nasty words!! since they will have a market this weekend they really need to have them. but from my point of view, i would say we should determine how much do we want to keep them when we ask them to borrow! and if they have sth inportant (eg. market) we can return them only that time. It is a huge loss that the wholesaler doesn't have a sample but since we have decided to have their products they could be nicer - like melissa or alline!(they allowed us to keep them and they ordered samples for them) boo.
also i went to the bookstore @ southcenter and i felt that my english is worse than before... and less careful again! i could have asked her to discount one book which is damaged but i didn't! and where all the samples gone!?!?!?
pretty stressful day - just cuz of me.

んー

インターネットはたまに知らないほうがよかったことを教えてくれる、んでその責任は自分にあるのがまた悔しい
みたいなことを誰かが1年位前に言ってたけど自分でそれを体験するとは思わなんだ。

fall in love (again?)

since i started working at the catalog company i started thinking about the job at the catalog co. The catalog is very interesting media because it contains everything such as a products, an advertisement, an essence of magazine, an interesting customer-relationship, and an image/story of the product. Also catalog/web-catalog has a bigger potential for the number of customers once the person tried the catalog-shopping and had a good experience because it doesn't require people to travel to shop.
and so where i wanna work is
F社 at Kobe (hey, why all the catalog co.s are in the west?).
it was surprising that they have a very hard screening(?). i don't know i can accomplish but i wanna try.
also the HR website is much nicer than another catalog co which has tons of flash and too much impact that always i hate. F's website is like...speaks kindly towards applicants. and i believe that fits me more. also i wanna create a catalog/website (if i do) just like those kinda - not try to impress people by sth "BANG!" but try to talk with people.
i've been learining that my work tends to be always sloppy, and i wanna improve that. as same as working in S研, i need to be in somewhere that i would be compared with better person and required to do fine work. i really really feel that i need to improve that part of myself.

scoled

cuz i put the all samples in the bin without folding them neatly.
well, what i really need to learn is doing things neatly, carefully, and thoughtfully. i'm too easy to make things done.
so what i did today was just finding out the place that carries extrabig size ziploc bag and folding the clothes in the bins and alphabetized mistery samples. all day folding. everyone was super tired....