UP and DOWN

couldn't wake up until 9:30...again. I cried, wanted to die, I hated me a lot, and I felt I need sb to talk with. i realized that i can accept myself by the fact that sb needs me or loves me. since i didn't finish HW yesterday(just emailing w/み) i decided to be alone.
But after reading email from Jason, after checking yesterday's photos, after starting studying, after IB class... gradually my feeling got better&better. school makes me fine, that is what I've been taught from my mom, and now i feel that exactly right.