hey

akebi will come here on Aug 28th. and i'll be back to japan on Sep 8th. hey, that's exciting, isn't it? it was just timing that ayako lend me the guidebook of Orlando yesterday. Thanks ayako! I started reading that from this evening.
i had summer roll, friedrice, crepe, tofu, bread, and curry - as a dinner(from 18:00-24:00). hmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmm
i read the log of my blog(id:l11alcilco) and realized that i should not go back to S-lab. i was overwhelmed whole time and it was not my job. i should think again about the rest of my school life. i need to remember that i am not crative and i am a very usual person. i cannot do that again and if i do that, that will be a waste of time. i need to do sth that i can be confident and comfortable (but it means easy for me and it's not good. the reason why i could feel confident in this whole year was bcc's requirement was very lower than sfc - which is obvious and i should've realized at the beginning). but at the same time, i need to have a time to think. either input nor output, but time to think for future output.
still, maybe, i do not know what i want to do. do i want to live very busy or do i need at least weekends for rest? what do i want to do as a job? sales? then, what part of sales? b2b? b2c? at store? or what?
what i feel about the catalog co is it is very different from other business. they can only set the presentation and wait for customers to sell. of course, great cust services and carrying wonderful stuff should be there everyday to sell more and more, but it is little weird for me that owners cannot see cust actually. everything they do is reflected to the number of sales but --- i don't know. I need to see. more.
i wanna ask why they started this business and why they grow ... if there will be some time hopefully.

over all, what i think is - it is not the waste or detor for me to study here. i think i got something i still do not have in words.